Trying

I'm trying and that's something I hope you can see. I take care of you and your family the best I can. I see your attitude with me is changing. I know your trying too. At least that's what I want to see. I don't want to fall for a bull shit game and by the end of the day I hope you aren't playing with me. These feelings are running deep even if it means I'm going to end up throwing away my family in the process. To me their reservations are childish saying some bull shit about how they feel it isn't right. In the end it is my decision not theirs. I understand that because of my sister they don't want to see anything happen to me but damn. I'm attempting to not hold any piece of my past against you even though it's proving to be very difficult. Just realize I'm trying and I want this to work. Even if it isn't love it's something. Some type of connection that makes no sense. This is something that's new to both of us.

Sometimes

I just want to know you a little better... I know the reservations. I understand better than you think I do. I'm coming from a similar situation. I want to know where the pain I'm constantly seeing is coming from.

How long will a good day last

You're finally figuring it out. I've said over and over I'm not as difficult as you make it seem to. Its a matter of not pushing and seeing where the pain comes from. You love your music I love my books. We both work and work hard.

Smh...

Still listening to some extra shit.  I wish instead of giving you a chance I would have just walked away. That would have been a better idea. Whats the point? I'm not sure I really know what to do anymore. I never thought any of this was gonna get to me. Obviously I was wrong. Sometimes I wish I could say what's really on my mind instead of hiding the shit. I don't think you could really handle what I really think. You ain't ready for a woman like me. Very few men are I just wish you would get it together before I gotta walk away.

Pushing tempting and twisting

I'm not sure where the hell this is going sometimes it seems good and sometimes it seems like shit always so god damn concerned with how others precieve you why does it always have to be like that why can't it just be right why does everyone else's opinion seem to matter so much I'm trying my hardest to ignore what appears to be obvious and make the best out of a shafted situation smdh grow up move on I'm done I don't want to hear anymore of this shit from you I dont want to deal with anymore of your drama