Not Everything Is About You...

today hurt... to say the least anyway after 5 years it feels better to know that i can have some type of true emotion come out of me even if i dont really like the complete outcome of it right now so yes somewhere deep inside there is some type of heart but very few ever get to see it i just wish someone could break down this situation i need some type of explanation for what the hell is going on it goes back and forth so much it drives me nuts right now i feel like im strong enough to walk away from something that isnt good for me but i know the next time something happens i wont be strong enough to stay away it's like this is something that cant be stopped no matter how hard we both seem to try to stop it you know all my weaknesses tho you do nothing but tell me how strong i have to be to deal with the things i deal with on the day to day and with my job this isnt strength its a ticking time bomb just waiting and one day im going to break and you're going to see it then what happens